THE JOY LUCK CLUB.

To understand my life, just watch The Joy Luck Club.  I'm a cross between June and Waverly. Yup.  Pretty much sums up my life.  

A FEW THINGS ON MY MIND. :)

1. How does someone hit a parked car? Did they notice that it wasn't moving at all and just sitting there? And why after hitting it not own up to their mistake by leaving a note and information?

2. How is it that my insurance "might" go up just because someone else hits my car while it was parked during the night?

3. Three earthquakes in 3 days. Pretty scary. Gotta replenish my earthquake supplies.

4. I've come to realize that I'm not a person that can just sit around and be ok with the mediocre of life. I have to constantly be on the move. I actually become more stressed out and depressed when I'm bored with life.

5. I MUST travel...somewhere...very, very very soon.

6. Why am I still in California? I've been pondering a lot on this lately.

7. I CANNOT believe that May is almost over. I haven't accomplished much this year and it's almost halfway over!

8. I still have one last Christmas present to send out. It's been sitting in a box...on my floor since December.

9. I want to be a skilled ninja so that I can fight crimes at night. (Chad...this is for you!)

10. Wondering why my Wii is sitting in a box and why there are still boxes from my move that hasn't been unpacked. Do I not need what's inside of it? What is inside of them?????

AND I WANT TO LIVE HERE...

Interesting articles on the web today. I've already posted one earlier this morning. You can click HERE to read it. Here are two more articles. One talks about the HAPPIEST PLACES (Disneyland isn't even on the list!) to live in the States and the other one about a CAVE HOME. Now if I can just move the cave home to one of the happiest place, like Hawaii, I think I would be quite happy. :)

WHO WOULDN'T WANT TO LIVE IN A CAVE HOME IN HAWAII????

03/03/09 UPDATE :)

A quick update on my life as of 3/3/09:

1. I was shocked over what happened on the Bachelor last night. Seriously Jason...you have just single-handily proved that ALL men are pigs. Thanks.

2. I'm detoxing from FACEBOOK! I know! It was dictating my life and every free moment that I have. I will be the first to admit: I HAVE AN ADDICTION! So this is why the drastic measure has to take place. So, now that I don't have Facebook, I blog instead. :)

3. My hairdresser went scissor happy on my hair. It's shorter than what I wanted, but it's cute. After the cut, I looked into the mirror and realized that I'm a spitting image of my mother when she was my age. It was kind of shocking how I look like her!

4. Today, one of my co-workers came and told me that she got up at 5 AM to prepare me lunch, a Korean tofu-soup (yum!) and that she's packed a Tuna sandwich for me to bring to class. Isn't that sweet?! I love my friends!

5. It's funny to me that God keeps filling up my life with stuff...good stuff. Whenever I'm just about to think "Ok...I think this is it..." He comes through. I'm just in amazement right now.

6. I'm beginning to realize how much I do not want to please men and that my heart aches to do everything for the Lord. It literally makes my tummy upset and makes me sick. And I know I have a few quirks and kinks to work out on my end too. I'm in no way perfect! But I can try!

7. I AM LOVING LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UPS & DOWNS of life....

Well...what can you do when major changes happens in your life? The only thing that I've figured out is that you keep going forward. You don't look back and you don't stay put. You keep moving forward and hope that at the end of the road there will be a great outcome! :)

It's been only a week and a half since the BIG lay-offs at my work. I already feel like it's been years. I have to admit that it has been really hard to walk into work every day. It's a different place. It's a lot quieter. The dynamics has changed. The focus has shifted. I really don't know what is in store for me there anymore. That makes me sad.

So many changes are happening all at once. When it rains it DEFINITELY pours! Why couldn't it be spread out? Why does it all have to come at the same time? I don't understand it. It's like when one change happens, the other changes gathers and says to each other "hey, lets all get her all at the same time!"

Besides work changes, I will be moving in 3 weeks. Most likely to Brea. Other changes includes loss of friendships, people moving away, possible new church, and me going back to school to pursue something that seems impossible. I really just wish these things didn't all gang up on me at the same time. I don't handle change very well. I want to hide in a cave.

I wonder if my work will let me take a month off again...Hmmmmm....it's almost been a year and I'm due for another one. I may even have you join me if you can think of a way to get me a month off again! :)

LIFE SUCKS.

The last two days were very tough and emotional. I've learned a lot of things about life. Life sucks. BUT God is steady through all of it.

We all know that the economy is just not doing so well all over the world. This means that a lot of places are making drastic changes. Changes that will alter someone's life.

Thursday morning I was asked a very tough question by my two bosses. They told me that every department are making cuts and they need to too. So, they wanted to know what my thoughts are and asked me to choose whether or not I want to keep at full time or go down to part time. This was tough because I was picking fate for either my life or the life of the other full time accountant on staff.

To make a long story short, I've decided to stay on full time, while the other accountant was told the bad news of going to part time which means losing ALL benefits and decrease in pay. I feel so horrible because so many things comes into play for this and for her. TRUST ME...one of the toughest decisions I had to make.

Then the news kept coming about other people being let go. All which are my good friends. Friends that goes beyond just working together. Friends that I have shared life with. Friends that makes me want to go to work in the mornings. Friends that makes even the worst day at work so great. I've lost them. All of them. I've cried over the loss of these people. As I'm writing this, my eyes are welling up. I am so sadden by all of this. A chunk of my heart has been taken away.

Although I am so GRATEFUL that I have a job during this time, I am sad, frustrated, angry and burdened by the fact that I will no longer see my friends on a daily basis.

2009 is a year of change. With that comes excitement. With excitement comes the realization of how GREAT our God is.

Monday morning, when I walk through the those doors, I will no longer see my friend with her smiley face at the front desk. I am probably going walk down the hallway to go see my other friend to ask how her weekend went only to see her empty desk. Then probably text her to see if she's going to be coming in later that day. I will be eating lunch alone. I won't have anyone to complain to. It's going to be so different.

PERSPECTIVE

I've been meaning to write this post two weeks ago. I was on my way back from San Jose to Orange County. A young man sat next to me and struck up a conversation because he was curious to what I was reading: Mudhouse Sabbath. We chit chatted from the time he sat down till we got our luggage. We had a good conversation, but the part that got me was when I found out a little bit about his life. You see, he's 27, married with 3 kids, working full time at the Apple store, full time seminary student, children's pastor at church and takes turn to watch the kids when his wife goes in for work as a nurse. At the end of his list, he caught me off guard by saying that he LOVES his life and he wouldn't change anything. After hearing that, I started laughing. He asked me why I was laughing and told him that I just took a month off to take a break from life because I couldn't handle my very, very, very simple life and my one job. We both started laughing and he told me not to feel bad. Different people handle life differently. I think he was being nice but probably thinking "Wow, this girl is crazy!"

From that conversation, I just told myself: P-E-R-S-P-E-C-T-I-V-E!!!!! :)