Early Birthday Present to Myself!!!!!!

I've recently purchased a gift for myself...an iPhone. I love it! At first I was contemplating why I needed one and the only reason that I came up with is for the "coolness" of having one. What is worth $200+ to look cool? YES!!!!!!! I don't even care if I look uncool with it. I just love this phone. It has revolutionized my life and I am so giddy to use it.

Here are some reasons why I love this phone:

1. I'm not a person that talks on the phone, but with the iPhone, I get so EXCITED to receive calls. Like mentioned before...it has revolutionized my life.

2. Everything is in the palm of my hands: texting, map/GPS system, email, Internet, iTunes, and many cool applications to download...for FREE!!!!

3. It's sleek and it makes me feel cool. :)

4. It simple to use.

5. It makes me smile. :)

If you don't have one, get one. You won't regret it!!!

If you have one, please share your experiences with me!!!

UPS & DOWNS of life....

Well...what can you do when major changes happens in your life? The only thing that I've figured out is that you keep going forward. You don't look back and you don't stay put. You keep moving forward and hope that at the end of the road there will be a great outcome! :)

It's been only a week and a half since the BIG lay-offs at my work. I already feel like it's been years. I have to admit that it has been really hard to walk into work every day. It's a different place. It's a lot quieter. The dynamics has changed. The focus has shifted. I really don't know what is in store for me there anymore. That makes me sad.

So many changes are happening all at once. When it rains it DEFINITELY pours! Why couldn't it be spread out? Why does it all have to come at the same time? I don't understand it. It's like when one change happens, the other changes gathers and says to each other "hey, lets all get her all at the same time!"

Besides work changes, I will be moving in 3 weeks. Most likely to Brea. Other changes includes loss of friendships, people moving away, possible new church, and me going back to school to pursue something that seems impossible. I really just wish these things didn't all gang up on me at the same time. I don't handle change very well. I want to hide in a cave.

I wonder if my work will let me take a month off again...Hmmmmm....it's almost been a year and I'm due for another one. I may even have you join me if you can think of a way to get me a month off again! :)

LIFE SUCKS.

The last two days were very tough and emotional. I've learned a lot of things about life. Life sucks. BUT God is steady through all of it.

We all know that the economy is just not doing so well all over the world. This means that a lot of places are making drastic changes. Changes that will alter someone's life.

Thursday morning I was asked a very tough question by my two bosses. They told me that every department are making cuts and they need to too. So, they wanted to know what my thoughts are and asked me to choose whether or not I want to keep at full time or go down to part time. This was tough because I was picking fate for either my life or the life of the other full time accountant on staff.

To make a long story short, I've decided to stay on full time, while the other accountant was told the bad news of going to part time which means losing ALL benefits and decrease in pay. I feel so horrible because so many things comes into play for this and for her. TRUST ME...one of the toughest decisions I had to make.

Then the news kept coming about other people being let go. All which are my good friends. Friends that goes beyond just working together. Friends that I have shared life with. Friends that makes me want to go to work in the mornings. Friends that makes even the worst day at work so great. I've lost them. All of them. I've cried over the loss of these people. As I'm writing this, my eyes are welling up. I am so sadden by all of this. A chunk of my heart has been taken away.

Although I am so GRATEFUL that I have a job during this time, I am sad, frustrated, angry and burdened by the fact that I will no longer see my friends on a daily basis.

2009 is a year of change. With that comes excitement. With excitement comes the realization of how GREAT our God is.

Monday morning, when I walk through the those doors, I will no longer see my friend with her smiley face at the front desk. I am probably going walk down the hallway to go see my other friend to ask how her weekend went only to see her empty desk. Then probably text her to see if she's going to be coming in later that day. I will be eating lunch alone. I won't have anyone to complain to. It's going to be so different.