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Last night I met with a close friend for dinner and we caught up with each other's lives.  The main topic of the night was about our Christian journey and how we're both on parallel/similar track right now.  We are "rediscovering" what Church means to us and trying to breakaway the things that has been ingrained in us on how to be a "good" Christian.  In the midst of our conversation, she asked me how my counseling was coming along.  I told her that I think it's strange and funny that I have to pay someone to tell me that it's normal for me to be on this journey I'm on and that I'm not a bad Christian.  We laughed a bit and then felt sad that people in the Christian community cannot support and/or encourage me on this journey and I have to pay good money for a professional to tell me so.  

So, why is it so hard for people to understand that I don't want to be on the same journey they are on and that I have my own journey to discover?  

SIMPLE THINGS in LIFE #4: NO MORE FACEBOOK!!!

I have been detoxing from Facebook for a couple of weeks now.  It has been so freeing.  But just last week, I officially "DELETED" my Facebook.  Before, my account was on deactivate mode which means that when I'm ready to get back on, all my friends, statuses, pictures, comments, etc. will all still be there.  But after discussing this with a friend and helping another friend delete their account, I officially did it too.  To be quite honest, I don't miss it at all.  I thought I would go through withdrawals, but I'm doing quite fine and I actually feel happier.  I often describe my Facebook experience like being on drugs.  When I was on it, I couldn't stop checking it.  But now that I 'm not on it, I don't miss it one bit.  Also, it's so nice that I don't have to read any more statuses!  

COMMITMENTS. UGH!

I got myself a realtor and gave her a list of 19 houses that I would like to check out.  This is a very scary process for me.  I am very afraid of commitments: relationships, short-term, long-term, job, a HOUSE, etc... But I'm doing this in honor of my parents.  We'll see where it takes me.  Please PRAY that I will stay sane!!!  

SOMETIMES I WONDER...

Sometimes I wonder if I let someone special slip away because of my fear of commitment, my need to feel like an independent woman, and my inability to see people for who they are and accepting them when they don't fit in my expectations.  

ADVENT CONSPIRACY 2010