COMMITMENTS. UGH!

I got myself a realtor and gave her a list of 19 houses that I would like to check out.  This is a very scary process for me.  I am very afraid of commitments: relationships, short-term, long-term, job, a HOUSE, etc... But I'm doing this in honor of my parents.  We'll see where it takes me.  Please PRAY that I will stay sane!!!  

GROWING UP...

Yesterday afternoon I had an epiphany. I have been trying to find out why I'm afraid of commitments, especially in the relationship area. I think I've figured out the root problem! I'm afraid of being cut off from my parents. Yup. There. I've said it. I like to know that I don't technically have to live on a budget because I have unlimited access to their stash. Once I'm in a serious relationship, all that is going to disappear. That makes my heart race and I feel like I can't breathe. So, I'm putting it on my blog for accountability reason. I really need to work through this. I've been so comfortable living this way that it has actually kept me from other things...like being committed. It's a sad reality...but I have to cut off the umbilical cord andstart growing up. It's a scary scary scary world out there.