GROWING UP...

Yesterday afternoon I had an epiphany. I have been trying to find out why I'm afraid of commitments, especially in the relationship area. I think I've figured out the root problem! I'm afraid of being cut off from my parents. Yup. There. I've said it. I like to know that I don't technically have to live on a budget because I have unlimited access to their stash. Once I'm in a serious relationship, all that is going to disappear. That makes my heart race and I feel like I can't breathe. So, I'm putting it on my blog for accountability reason. I really need to work through this. I've been so comfortable living this way that it has actually kept me from other things...like being committed. It's a sad reality...but I have to cut off the umbilical cord andstart growing up. It's a scary scary scary world out there.