DETOX DAY 12 + GOD + CHURCH

Weight loss/gain:  ZERO (Guess it's better than gaining!)

Food intake:  

• Breakfast: Berries w/banana shake
• Lunch: Salad w/wild salmon and 1/2 of a Fuji apple
• Snack: Berries w/banana shake
• Dinner:  Salad w/wild salmon, steamed asparagus, 1/2 of a sweet potato

Exercise: 35 minutes fast paced walk, cheering for Spain, and using my brain on tedious homework problems (does that count?)

I can do this.  I can do this.  I can do this.  I can do this.  I can do this.  

God + Church:  Well...I'm so overwhelmed with feelings, thoughts and questions. Not sure what do to with it all.  Just when I think I'm doing quite well, something happens and makes me confused.  Any good reads to recommend on this? Perhaps a podcast?  I think I need therapy.  So, any good therapist out there?!  Help!!!!

A MUST WATCH.

"Sunday's Coming" Movie Trailer from North Point Media on Vimeo.

CAFFEINE + CHURCH

Caffeine: Today I had a lot of caffeine. A LOT. I had a cup of Starbuck's coffee because I was desperate and it's the only thing we have at the office. So, I made a cup, added some water and sugar and downed it. Then, I decided to go to Peet's and get a soy latte. I ordered a small cup and it had 2 shots of espresso. Then, I had a virgin Margarita that contains a bunch of sugar, ate candies and cookies and now I'm very jittering. I feel like my heard is beating fast and it's about to pop out. I've never had this much sugar in my life in ONE setting!

Church: A few days ago I posted a blog about church. I just want to clarify one thing...I'm not quitting church or God. I'm just simply questioning it to kind of help me make sure that my motives are right. I also posted the status on my Facebook and Twitter account. To my surprise, I had people texting, emailing, CALLING me to check if I was ok. I just want to say that I AM OK. :) Really. I'm not trying to cover it up or anything. I simply wanted to hear what others had to say. So, once again... I AM OK. I am not drifting away from God or my beliefs. I'm just taking a little break from my "usual routine" to experience other way of "church."

WHAT IS CHURCH?

I've been battling with the definition/meaning of church recently. It has been a mind battle for me. I feel guilty when I don't go to "church" on Sunday mornings and when I do go to "church" I feel like it's more out of force and make sure that I make it so that people can see that I was there. Going to "church" has been feeling more and more like a roll call in class for me. If people see me there, I wouldn't get questioned. If they don't see me there, I can expect a few texts in the days following asking where I was. Granted, they care about me, but at the same time I hate the feeling that I have to go to "church" just so that I won't get questioned. And when my answer is simply "I didn't feel like going" and/or "I wanted to spend time with God...alone," I get this appalled look as if I just committed a crime or something.

I don't believe that "church" is about Sunday mornings. I don't believe that "church" is a building. I don't believe that guilt should be associated with "church." I don't believe that I need to give an excuse to why I'm not at "church." I don't believe that I need to attend "church" in order to earn brownie points with God.

I do believe that CHURCH happens every day and in every and any settings. I'm still learning...

What are your thoughts????