In recent months, I have not been able to:

• listen to any sermon podcasts (I did, however, forced myself to listen to one yesterday...to my surprise, it was good)
• spend time with God
• read the Bible
• journal on a regular basis
• attend church service without anxiety
• not be disappointed in/by people
• see the goodness of Christians and/or Christianity

However, I am able to listen to worship music and enjoy it thoroughly.  It's the only form of "religious" act I can give to right now. This moment in time is my "darkest valley."  As God commands it, I am to walk through it, not stop and settle.  So, with that in mind, my journey may be long (it's been five years so far), but I know one day I'll reach a point where all the things listed above will no longer bring me anxiety and I will have freedom again.